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Tuesday, August 18, 2009 ♥ 2:53:00 PM
I'm still alive and going to update soon. =)
Monday, April 20, 2009 ♥ 10:52:00 PM
Another update I really wanted to post.
10 year ago, on this date, shit happened.
I remembered I was still in secondary one when this was broadcast all over the news.
I was wondering what the big fuss is about until I actually saw the moving images in the news.
A school kid, bloodied, dropping from the window as SWAT team members rescued him with a van.
The headlines were screaming COLUMBINE HIGH SCHOOL SHOOTOUT and oh my God, did I finally realize what was going on.
For the exact information go to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Columbine_High_School_massacre
But I am just going to summarize here.
2 boys, Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, school outcasts, went on a rampage this very day 10 years ago and killed 12 of their school mates and a teacher. The motives behind their attack were still being debated till this day but the many innocent lives that were lost, are just too shocking.
The people that they killed did not do anything to them but it was the culture and the beliefs back in their school in those days that lead them to become outcasts and later, killers.
I kept a close eye on this news for the next 10 years. It was an interesting topic as it shows how the school culture in US was like. It was revealed that there were lots of bullying, fighting, racism and other really unpleasant stuff going on.
Oh yes the thing that pissed me off the most till this day is that the news blamed the games that might have possibly influence the 2 boys.
GOSH HOW I HATE THAT! QUIT BLAMING OTHERS FOR YOUR F**KED UP MISTAKES!
My church friend, Isaac even loaned me a diary written by a girl, Rachel Scott, shortly before her end on that tragic day. It was compiled by her parents and the contents inside were really tear jerking.
I furiously read each and every news that come along every year about the anniversary of the massacre.
Finally, as I read the news on Yahoo! A few minutes ago, there were quite a lot of updates on that school, 10 years later.
Here are the links:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090420/ap_on_re_us/columbine_vigil;_ylt=AtvWpzxeyOKgI7ttgTWz6OxvzwcF
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/columbine_active_shooter;_ylt=Ao8CcniouhU9ifPMY3C6gdhH2ocA;_ylu=X3oDMTE2ZnFrbWVhBHBvcwMyBHNlYwN5bi1yLWItbGVmdARzbGsDLXNob290Zmlyc3Q6
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/columbine_survivors_and_family;_ylt=AosXJ5Fzikt5QnDhzp5SdV1H2ocA;_ylu=X3oDMTE2aWZubDE4BHBvcwMzBHNlYwN5bi1yLWItbGVmdARzbGsDLWNvbHVtYmluZWZh
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/columbine_s_survivors_vignettes;_ylt=AoaUIQLOzQmpCyEpDNWbQrBH2ocA;_ylu=X3oDMTE2cmk5anJuBHBvcwMxBHNlYwN5bi1yLWItbGVmdARzbGsDLWNvbHVtYmluZXN1
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090420/ap_on_re_us/columbine_s_survivors;_ylt=AvETdRklblvBzDfiBBTAoMtvzwcF
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090420/ap_on_re_us/columbine_the_principal;_ylt=As8b0qIsJEAsei22UiWxVHtvzwcF
I was glad that after such a long time, everybody had move on. Wounds have healed and survivors have moved on and became successful in life.
Words can’t express how touching it was to see how they have struggled and lived on and that everything was alright now.
God bless them all and I pray that such a thing will never happen again.
♥ 9:49:00 PM
Orientation Camp is over and here I am, officially in Temasek Polytechnic.
YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!
Orientation Camp is quite ok but a little boring.
Guess I have grown out of that kind of thing, LOL.
I went to school today, the first day of school, with an excited heart.
Excited at what I am going to learn and also fulfilling my dream of becoming a game programmer.
However, lurking somewhere in my heart is also the crap and slacking attitude that I obtained from army.
Hmm…I must pray and get rid of it, before it takes over and run me down.
The first lesson was some communication skill subject, something like the CARE lessons back in ITE.
The teacher was cool, got a cool slang and generally speaks excellent English, just like Cindy and Felia from CARE lessons that I had back in ITE. Audrey, the teacher, was quite friendly and interacts quite well with us, after my observation of her. But she talks a little…too much LOL.
Even she herself admits it because she explained that she is literature trained, you know, those types that think in terms of words and generally fall in love with a superb piece of poem and go crazy over famous writers instead of pop singers.
After her lesson I met up with my good buddy back in ITE, Wei Zhi, for a time of fellowship. He brought me to the laptop fair and I think I spotted one of Eng Koon’s friends who happen to be a promoter for Fujitsu. I didn’t call out to her cause there were too many people mobbing her it seems, LOL.
We went to the cafeteria belonging to the Design school and oh my God, had a super duper excellent western meal man!
Kudos for the introductions, Wei Zhi!
We proceed to Cheers at the Business school after our meal to get my Red Bull, you know, its afternoon and my eyes starts to get sleepy so in order to keep myself awake, I drank it!
Off to the library after that and I was pretty impressed by the books available. Very very useful books that I can utilized for my projects. Didn’t have such a great library back in ITE and thank God I found one in Temasek Polytechnic.
My lesson starts at 1pm and I bid farewell to Wei Zhi at around 12.30pm and made my way towards the classroom.
I was early and there were NOBODY from my class. Damn and I was a little nervous as I wondered whether I had gone to the correct class.
Do you know why I was nervous?
It’s because students were outright playing all kinds of games in the lab!
For a moment I forgot that I was learning about making games man!
Gosh.
Seriously sometimes I still can’t believe I am doing what I love.
Everybody came and my teacher too so lesson starts right away.
Oh yeah my teacher is an ANG MO!
LOL yeah got a cool slang and heard that he is one of the developers of GTA4! Couldn’t confirm that but he was pretty cool as he knows his stuff!
The lesson was basically quite a paradigm shift from ITE and secondary school. We were given assignments right on the first day and poof! We dived right into tutorials.
Garry, that was the name of the Ang Mo, told us to think of 3-4 ideas for a board game.
Gosh, that was the COOLEST thing I ever heard!
Imagine! I AM REALLY PLANNING FOR A GAME!!!!
No longer going through boring lessons but we are going to start throwing ideas around to make a game!
However, it must come with an educational theme in it and honestly speaking, it was really tough. Thinking of 3-4 ideas on the spot isn’t easy. Imagine you have to think of the rules and gameplay and also not forgetting the educational theme. I and my group of 3, who were sitted beside me, brainstormed for ideas and we fully utilized the time that Garry gave us.
When it was time for presentation, I panicked, because the first 3 groups’ presentation was quite good and I didn’t expect them to cram so much information in the slide, whereas I had only a few words! I was planning to talk instead of letting the class read the slides but I didn’t expect Garry wanted us to pass up the slides!
Thank God he allowed us to email him, so therefore I went back home and added more words and sent him, feeling satisfied.
Truly, I still have much to learn. Most importantly, getting rid of the f**k up army lifestyle and back to a student/civilian.
Ah well I don’t have any homework but I am not going to do nothing so I am going to read some stuff.
Well I hope you enjoyed my little update, heh.
So till the next post, God bless!
Wednesday, April 08, 2009 ♥ 1:06:00 PM
4 months and 4 days has elapsed since my last post. Gosh. Sorry cause I was too busy.
Well…how should I do this man….so many things have happened since the last post.
Well let’s start off with the month of January. Had a great Chinese New Year, yeah was one of the best in my whole life cause I took additional off days after the main public holiday so I had 1 week of Chinese New Year, lol. Went visiting and socializing through the entire week and was glad that I make the right decision in taking off. Anyway I had too much off unclear anyway.
February huh…nothing much except the daily routine of wake up, eat, PSP and sleep. Stayed at home on Valentine’s Day cause I don’t have anyone at the moment to date, lol.
March was a month full of excitement. I was eagerly waiting for my confirmation to Temasek Polytechnic, which I had finally decided to go to, and gotten a confirmation that I had enrolled! There was quite a lot of stuff to do before I can become a student, namely from the military side. Can’t reveal much but all I can say that there was lots of hassle getting it done.
April! March has slipped away quietly and I did not notice the significant of April arriving.
1 MORE MONTH TO ORD!
WOHOOOOOOOOOOOO~!
I didn’t realize this until Clara pointed it out during last week’s cell group meeting.
OH MY GOD I AM SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!!
But alas I can’t really jump around in joy for I am currently not feeling that well…yes I am having off today but I am not feeling well. I can’t sleep well in bunk too cause those buggers tend to make a lot of noise and sleeps late in the night. I actually wanted to continue typing my story but my head is getting too dizzy. Therefore instead I choose to update this little blog of mine. Well, got to go sleep now, till the next post! I still own you the 25 random things Felia! Don’t worry I won’t forget!
God bless!
Sunday, January 04, 2009 ♥ 9:12:00 PM
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
It’s a little late but hey who cares? Finally 2009 has arrived. The crap of 2008 is now GONE!
1 full year of NS is GONE!
Only 127 (GOSH!) days left!!!
That translates to roughly 4 months and 1 week to ORD!
GOD I AM SO FREAKING EXCITED!
Really thank God that 2008 is gone man. So much crap stuff has happened. Especially most of them are army related. THANK GOD only 4 months and 1 week left for their bullshit!
Hard to believe that another year has just come and went just like that. I was browsing through the various blogs that I frequent and happened to chance upon my ex-ITE lecturer Yee Fen ( http://sinnothoo.wordpress.com/ ) and saw how she organized the events of 2008 that happened to her and gave me an idea to list my own too, LOL.
So here goes:
January: Nothing much happens, except that a few small people in bunk declared war on me, which I eventually emerged as victor in the end, LOL.
February: Nothing much again, invited a few people over to my house on Chinese New Year. It was a little too quiet. Miss those times when there were a lot of my friends over at my place during CNY. Going to do that again this year!
March: Can’t really remember much. Guess it must be some unpleasant army stuff that my brain has suppressed to the point that I can’t remember, LOL.
April: Ah…a month full of activities! Firstly, our dear Mas Selamat Kustaragi escaped and my company was RECALLED back from our Good Friday leave to hunt him down. After the hunt it was quickly followed by our half anticipated and half dreaded trip to India! Read my April post about it!
May: Amnesia again.
June: Ah… my 22nd birthday. I was surprised by my church friends as I never anticipate that anybody will remember because it falls on a weekday in 2008. Thanks to my best friend Gabriel that reminded them behind my back, LOL. I was blessed with a cool gift too, LOL. Unfortunately, on the eve of my birthday, I received a message from my dad that my God-father had passed away due to a heart attack at the age of 66. Almost told my dad to call our ‘contacts’ and ‘connections’ to deal with my f!@k up platoon sergeant that ABSOLUTELY refused to let me go and pay my respect to my God-father! Reason? ‘Oh your God-father isn’t your next of kin.” Oh wow you f!@#$r has sunk to a new stinky low in my eyes, you f!@#$%g tattoo loser. Don’t let me see you outside, jackass.
July: Lots of trainings due to the upcoming ATEC, it is an important examination for military personnel.
August: ATEC beings and lasted for 4 days 3 nights. It was the most tiring and toughest out field battle I ever been. Thank God after that the tempo in camp dropped dramatically.
September: Our dear PC (Puiiiii-toon, I mean Platoon Commander) left. Part one of my prayers came through. Thank you God!
October: Our dear stinky tattoo loser of a Platoon Sergeant left. My prayers were answered. Thank you God for delivering the two demons from us!
November: ½ of the personnel from other companies ORD. ½ of our sergeants left too. New commanders came in to get ready to replace those that had left. Most of this time there were little training going on, just some self running and static exercises.
December: All those that were supposed to ORD left. 12 days of leave arrived near the end of the month. OH MY GOD! It was soooo shiok until we got recalled back for half a day. !@#!$!$. Celebrate Christmas in church and at home and feasted like crazy. I had a gift exchange with my cell group and I gave Season 7 of the Simpsons to Hong Bin. He was so happy, LOL. I received a tube of shower foam courtesy of Patricia, LOL. Oh yes I bought Tiberium Wars 3 for my brother and Dawn of War to keep myself entertained. I wish I could buy Persona 3 and 4 but ah….need to conserve some cash. I wanted to get Ayumi Hamasaki’s newest album, which was basically a compilation of ALL her songs and music videos, but again, need to CONSERVE! I spent New Year’s eve at home and watched the countdown on TV, in case you were thinking no I wasn’t watching the local one I was watching Taiwan’s countdown which was MUCH MUCH more happening, with my family. You can literally (alright you can’t) see the smile on my face as I see every time and calendar devices changed to 2009.
2009. The long awaited year has arrived. The year where my life can continue on, things will get done, dreams fulfilled, new breakthroughs, new victories, new defeats, new friends, new things, new knowledge, new intimacies with God, renew interests in His Word and finally, perhaps I may find the one I love. Not confirmed yet so don’t anyhow bomb this in front of me, LOL.
Ah, the sweet sweet smell of freedom is near. As I type this, cold wind blew into my room (don’t worry no ghosts around I’ve checked), I can feel the strength and power from the Holy Ghost arriving.
Truly many exciting things will come in 2009. Even for church! My pastor gave us an outline for things to expect and I can tell you, it is a lot! Pastor did mention SPECIFICALLY about water baptism and it seems like it was directed at me. Alright then! I shall do it right away after I ORD! Water baptism, HERE I COME!
Oh yes oh yes I forgot to mention what I did today. I went to church and the service was good (including the outline of the year which I just mentioned) and helped Nick with the Newcomers’ Tea! It was eye-opening as this was the first time that I was present! I didn’t attended it when I was a young Christian as I was thrust into the next level of Bible Study without even been introduced to the church! LOL it was such a long time ago man! Close to 6 years now.
After the Tea my cell group went down to Bugis to have our lunch! It was quite a late lunch, LOL. Sat in Yi Huai’s car today and I was amazed by his powerful sound system and I almost feel like I was in a discotheque! Many things ran through my mind due to some familiar songs that I heard therefore I was quiet for most of the journey. One of them was dreading about going back to camp in the night -.-||
Another thought that was running through my mind was about my love life but I’m not going to share it because I know there are spybots on my blog. I might write it in another post perhaps.
I ate in a coffee shop opposite Bugis Street and my Hong Bin recommended me to try the duck rice with soup. I never ate that before and therefore gave it a go. My God! It was marvelous! There was a huge selection for soups and I had to go with salted vegetable soup as the one which I originally wanted ran out. Anyway had a good time during fellowship and we parted a little while after we finished our lunch.
I went back home with Rudolf and Wan Rong and we parted after reaching Khatib in the train.
Alright, I got to go get ready to head back to camp. -.-||
It’s alright I’ll bear with it for 4 more months! 2009 IS THE YEAR OF LIBERATION!
Thanks for reading and God bless!
Monday, December 29, 2008 ♥ 12:34:00 AM
Greetings!
As promised, since I have some free time, I’ll update again.
Went to church alone in the morning. I had a hard time getting out of bed man. Thank God I prayed a little and manage to tear myself away from my bed, LOL.
Reached church super early and met Jeremy, BRYNNER and Cheryl, booked seats with Jeremy while the other 2 left for choir. Man everybody arrived when service was almost starting. Was afraid that the usher might come and hound me about the empty seats and I might have to turn into some hideous being to deal with them.
Service was great, considering the fact that it was the last one for 2008. Pastor delivered a great message, one which I would remember due to its importance, and I got to litter today! LOL!
I accompanied my cell group for lunch at the airport after we met one of our members that just came back from Taiwan. Man was freaking hungry but had no idea what to feast on in Kopitam at T3. I settled for chicken rice eventually.
Oh yes I met Hong Bin’s GIRLFRIEND wannabe today! Her name is BRYNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Yes emphasis on the ‘NAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA’ when you say her name! LOL
We left Kopitam and sent Sun off! She’s going back to LA. Too bad I couldn’t see her due to the crowds even though I was 1 head above others. I met up with my previous cell group members though while waiting for Sun to arrive at the departure hall. Had a good chat with my previous cell group leader Eileen! Her baby is so freaking cuteeeeeeeeeeeee!
After Sun departed, was about to go home but the rest of the cell group ‘convinces’ me to go and have some tao hui at Dhoby Guat. Resisted at first but agreed eventually cause I was curious about this magical place that Hong Bin always try to drag me along but failed.
Had a blast over that place, well basically they were laughing at the jokes I make. Was fun making them laugh but I ran out of ideas eventually, LOL.
Head back home after Jeremy arrives and finishes his tao hui while the rest went to Plaza Singapura for window shopping.
I played Monster Hunter 2 on the train ride back and I use my new long sword, True Devil Slicer, my new armour, the Tigrex S set and went to wack a Bulldrome. Darn using melee weapon is hard man! Now I finally understand why my pals in camp had such a hard time. It’s ok time to adapt!
Oh yes forgot to mentioned that this past few days of leave, I was basically updating my novel and searching for ideas. Eventually I went to do some blog hopping to get personality for my characters and I came across some very interesting ones. Truly from the bottom of my heart, some of the writers are facing very difficult times and they voice it out in their blog. I can literally feel their pain, their sorrow, their hurt and their tears in the words. There were even some shocking tragedies that I’ve read. It really makes my heart goes all out for them.
Some of them are so down I feel like contacting them and talk to them. But oh well can’t do that cause I was blog hopping and they will totally freak out if I message them. But there is one thing I can do. That is to pray for them. =)
Seriously this is the first time I found out that there is much much more in this bloggy thingy. One person’s thoughts and world lies in that hundreds and thousands of words in cyberspace. A click on their blog basically brings you into their world. Man…mankind is moving from glory to glory man!
Blogging is such a good tool for the characters in my novel blessed by the Lord. Thank you Lord!
In case you’re still wondering what the hell is it about, sorry I can’t reveal to you yet. But I can say that I am working on it a lot these past few days. Soon perhaps!
I’m going to update my novel now! Till the next post!
God bless!
Saturday, December 27, 2008 ♥ 9:51:00 PM
How long since I last updated? Darn looking at the date I realized it was back in November!
Before I type further, let me wish you a late Merry Christmas!
LOL
Sorry readers, too many things to do. Sometimes don’t feel like updating it cause whether I type, some people scrutinize whatever was in the post in detail and talk to me about it. Let me tell everybody straight, I type whatever I like. Don’t like it? ALT+F4 or kick your PC or something to shut it down.
LOL
Oh well I guess that’s why I set the blog up in the first place, to allow readers to enter my life!
Let me try and recall for a moment what I have been up to.
Ok here goes:
I went to AFA (Anime Festival Asia) 2008 with some of my army personnel on 22nd November. Almost one month ago and here I am blogging about it eh?
Jam packed with people, mostly guys because there was a Gundam model sale going on. Hey I bought myself my first Gundam model!
Freaking cool! I finished assembling it a few days later, lol.
There were some cosplayers during that event but seriously, none of them can make it. It was so darn terrible that I stop taking pictures of them after a while and instead went around the event hall enjoying the many things on display. It makes me wonder sometimes how the hell our local cosplayers are even going to compete with their overseas counterparts. Some of them look like they don’t even bother with the details! Some even wore stuff not suited to their looks or body size!
TERRIBLE!!!!!!!
Left the event later around 7+pm.
Fast forward to December, mostly on leave and offs from camp for the month.
Excellent! Staying in camp makes me stupid. Really. Nothing to do except eat, sleep, PSP and the occasional stuff to do. That’s all.
I can’t wait for 2009 to come!
Just came back from my cell group’s Christmas party. This year was special as I brought my brother along. Seems like he enjoy the attention given to him because he is the youngest among us all, lol.
This year’s food was good too! Better than last year man! From glory to glory!!!!
Had a really interesting gift exchange session. We were supposed to guess who gave us the gift by figuring out their baby pictures. When my turn came, I couldn’t guess my giver and had to do a forfeit by doing a front split. -.-||
Anyway thanks Patricia for the gift!
Watched Wild Child at the party and it was quite an interesting movie. After it ended, everybody started to pack up and leave. Gabriel and I stayed for awhile before we left in a big group. Came back home in the bus, playing Monster Hunter 2 during the journey of course, bath and decided to do a little update.
I don’t want this blog to die!!! LOL
Gosh I can’t wait for 2009 to arrive! ORD soon man! Getting out of this damn army soon!
Well I’m going to do other stuff now. Will update soon. SOON I promised. =)
God bless!
Saturday, November 08, 2008 ♥ 10:52:00 PM
Greetings!
Here’s another post from the GGDE!
Darn I just can’t stop playing Monster Hunter Freedom 2!!!!!
In my mind whenever I pick up the PSP, I am always thinking about how to get this armour, how to get this weapon and how to get this particular material.
I don’t understand why one of my platoon mate does not like such a cool game.
I mean you can solo and earn as much money and gain as much material you like and create armour and weapons to use in multiplayer battles man! The concept of Monster Hunter Freedom 2 is soooo simple and yet it is freaking addictive and fun!
Sad to say…Monster Hunter 3 is heading towards the Wii.
Damn Capcom (producers of the game), they always betray gamers that buy games exclusively for a gaming system (in this case the Playstation family of gaming systems) and then ABANDON them when they got rich selling the games and went to another system (in this case, usually it’s Nintendo).
It’s not the first time Capcom does such a thing…it happened to Resident Evil, Devil May Cry and now Monster Hunter.
Ah screw you Capcom, just wait for the GGDE to prove it to you about being loyal to your customers!
Lol sorry for ranting too much…it’s just that the way Capcom handle my favorite game franchises really piss me off.
Ah went for cell group meeting today and the message was great! It was about dealing with discouragement man. There are a lot of shits in life that you can continue to dwell on and keep thinking endless negative thoughts on it, or, you can either choose to think about it for awhile and FIGHT ON.
Discouragement in fact is actually a CHOICE. Either you think positively or let discouraging thoughts overrun you. Simple eh?
I like to thank God for this message as pastor had preached something similar about it when I was a new Christian. If I had continued to dwell on discouraging and negative thoughts, I wouldn’t be who I am right now.
I would have been a wreck!
It’s cool that the message had reminded me that there is an almighty God that is always thinking good and positive things about you, no matter how terrible you might be. So I thank God I gave up the negative and discouraging thoughts so many years ago and instead put my trust in Him and develop positive, encouraging thoughts about life and everything.
It is also Him that had transformed me to who I am now. Although…well some residue remains I am determined that together with His help I will do my best to eliminate the remaining nonsense.
THANK YOU LORD FOR SAVING ME!!!!
Sigh…so many things to do, yet so little time. The year is coming to a close soon huh. I actually saw the NTUC near my house set up its Christmas decoration. And it’s not even anywhere close to the day yet!
I feel like typing a reflection for this year but I am too brain tired to think of it. Perhaps while traveling to and fro church I’ll think about it. I got to go sleep now…need to wake up for service.
Thanks for reading and God bless!